Jenny Rathsavong

Gotta have the bed picture.


Polaroids galore.. old hair.


New hair. I want it MORE red though! :[

I'm always in my room now a days.
I love my bed, and my room.

I think I have 3 A's, 1 B, and 1 C. YAYYYY!!!!!!!!
I'm sooo satisfied, except for that C in Anatomy..

Tawnny Dogatzis

Smeagle (me) and Tawnny:


Tawnny's hair:

kthanksbye

change

Hello, new room.

lately

I failed my Anatomy and English final, for sure.
Complete bullshit. Whatever though. My fault.
At least I aced my Civics final. Hahaha.

I've been a real big homebody, surprisingly.

I'm not in the mood to do anything anymore.
I am tired. My heart is tired. My mind is tired.

TTYN! -_-

Schedule for the 2nd semester:
- wake up, get ready, go to school
- leave school to go to work, if i have work
- go out with friends.. unless i have work
- go running once i'm done w/ work or friends
- do homework and watch movies in bed
- shower and fall asleep reading books

Diet:
- oatmeal bites
- water

time

I don't have much time for people.
I only have time for important people.
I don't want to make time for anyone else.
I like my life in a small, little box.

I don't want to waste my time with people.
I want every second of my life to be worth while.

School sucks. Goodnight.

sleeping it off

I am stressed out with finals.
I am stressed out with school in general.
I am stressed out with unnecessary drama.
I am stressed out with the way I feel.

I just want to laugh.
I take my emotions out with running.
I want to relax.
I want to graduate.
I want to make more money.

I'm just going to sleep it all off.

wompp

Fuck my life. Finals are coming up.

reality

I like being sober.

Lately, I've realized.. I'd rather be sober than anything else. I think I used to be fucked up all the time to escape reality. Now, I just want to face it. There is no getting over reality until you're dead. I've always been aware of my surroundings, but I'm even more aware now that I'm sober all the time. Sometimes, when I look back at myself and how I used to be. It makes me think. How could I do that to myself? I don't even know how I was able to handle whatever it was that I used to do before. If I did that now, I don't think I could take it. Ha.

I'm at a good point in my life right now. I'm eighteen. My friends are good to me. My grades are okay, but they could be better. I don't have a guy in my life to ruin me. I've pushed all chances of a man in my life away, and I don't regret it. I think it might be better. High school shit is pointless anyway.

Okay. I'm just rambling. Time to go back to sleep until work.

Tawnny's bday party

Kthanksbye.

nothing is as effective as defeat

always carry a notebook with you
wherever you go, he said,
and don't drink too much, drinking dulls
the sensibilities,
attend readings, note breath pauses,
and when you read
always understate
underplay, the crowd is smarter than you
might think,
and when you write something
don't send it out right away,
put it in a drawer for two weeks,
then take it out and look
at it, and revise, revise,
REVISE again and again,
tighten lines like bolts holding the span
of a 5 mile bridge,
and keep a notebook by your bed,
you will get thoughts during the night
and these thoughts will vanish and be wasted
unless you notate them.
and don't drink, any fool can
drink, we are men of
letters.

for a guy who couldn't write at all
he was about like the rest
of them: he could sure
talk about
it.




Oh yeah... I made a tumblr. I am bored.
I just can't get enough of these journals, can I?
http://loretomarielle.tumblr.com/

high expectations

My expectations for people are too high. Actually, they're limitless.
I think that's why I am lonely. Hahaha. I expect so much, when I shouldn't
expect anything from anyone else, but myself. I can't help it though.

I think I deserve the best.
I choose not to settle for less.
I need to learn to accept things though.
Once again, I'm left by myself.

I push good things away from me,
even when they're almost perfect.
If they're not perfect, I won't have it.
I always find ways to escape.
I know I am doing it, too.
BUT, I am not stopping myself.

In the end, I'm sure it'll be worth it. I'll end up somewhere good,
with someone worthy enough for someone such as myself. & it's not that
I think highly of myself, I just don't want to have to deal with someone
who doesn't deserve me. That would just be a waste of my time.

I need to learn to be patient though. Yeah. Bye.